Over the years I have written a lot, but in the last two, rarely. I enter the space which used to be filled with words, expressions, impressions and some idea of what I felt I was compared to something else but often when I enter into this space there is a profound stillness - a void but not in the sense of absence but in the sense of spaciousness.
I found my singing voice the first winter I arrived at my Guru's ashram and from that day forward I often sing when in her presence and have been blessed with a microphone many times to sing alongside her swamis.
Since that day my writing has bubbled to the surface in rare occasions and when these moments arise the words stream forth in song lyrics! And recently I was able to perform one of these songs for my beloved Guru.
Here is the song that was written. I have a recording but have been asked not to release this very one so I may record it again in the future and release that copy. This song was written while on the US Tour 2010 in Albuquerque, NM.
The song is called "Ashes of Ego"
ASHES OF EGO
There was a time, in my life
Where I thought I knew everything
But there came a time in my life
Where I realized I knew nothing at All.
Walking on the banks of the Ganges
Tears streaming down my face
The ashes of Ego falling away
And the pain of past lives fade into flames.
Ashes of Ego
Tears purify
Hearts embrace
Amma's feet my sole refuge x2
A smile, a glance, a scolding
They all contain so much love
I feel every bit of what I thought I was
fall away in the depths of Amma's eyes
Tears flow at the sound of her voice
As it echoes in my heart,
The reverberations shake me to the core
Her love overflows and the I falls away
Ashes of Ego
Tears purify
Hearts embrace
Amma's feet my sole refuge x2
Your purifying glance, your warm embrace
Your feet and the path you walk
I feel myself falling away
Absorbed in your love divine
I thank you for revealing myself to me
Amma you are my every thing
The boat to carry me across
The rock I rest my weary bones on,
Amma you are my everything.
Ashes of Ego
Tears purify
Hearts embrace
Amma's feet - my sole refuge x2
Guitar solo
Ashes of Ego
Tears purify
Hearts embrace
Amma's feet - my sole refuge x3
Gaurang B McIntyre 06.2010
