Feeling important

We all search through life wanting to find the answers, the right way, the essence that makes us feel connected and important...we all find our importance within a group or the use of substances, people sometimes find it within the deeper areas of their inner physce. I travel to look at the world and see if I can fit where I stand, I challenge myself to stand in a crowd of a culture seperate from mine, a language I do not understand, customs I am yet unaware of...and work at understanding what shapes each place and where they are in the world at large. Through this evolution of my understanding I also search for acceptance and a pursuit of feeling important...doing my part in the world and hopefully impacting some lives along the way...I teach with compassion, I speak with thoughtfullness, I live with the belief that all people have greatness in them, and I try my best to emulate what I feel are my defining characteristics...I struggle in countries where I feel I don't fit in, where I seem to be looked through, where my opinions seem to travel through a thin rubber hose and disappate in the skies above never to be heard by the people on the ground...I feel alienated in some places...ironically one of these places seem to be the area from where I was born...my aspirations become less, I am deflated by the signs of discontent, the drone of the everyday, and the belief that this area of Canada will never change...because of this and my unwillingness to change I HAVE TO LEAVE! I have found myself in a totally different area of Canada on an island that seems to speak to me of thoughts that are my own, answers that which I request, understands my aspirations, realizes my dreams...yet I still question whether this is truly possible. This seems to be the problem, I find that which I search for...once found I begin to questions its legitimacy...this will end only when I accept that there are places in the world where I can truly be one with the place where I live. I sense that here.